Who is Naked Soul?

Rocnaija asked me on one of my old posts what my name meant. Here's my response

"Naked Soul"
Definition:

naked: bare completely unclothed, lacking any cover

soul: the actuating cause of an individual life, deep feeling or emotion

NAKED SOUL: a completely unclothed emotion, a feeling or life that lacks cover


I am a female being who has lived her life completely covered, smiling when shes supposed to cry, saying yes when the real answer is No. Always a people pleaser. A woman that has been hurt so many times and cant seem to find her way back to redemption.

Now i am tired of covers, pretense and confusion. Its time to let the real me out, so as to heal and be restored. hence the name NAKED SOUL because i am tired of hiding.
Like my blog greeting reads

"This is my Life without any cover..... and here's your VIP pass in sharing my experiences with me"

I have always been a giver. In friendships, family and dating. I believe in suffering myself to make the other person get what they want. My defense was if others are happy, i will be. Afterall the common sunday school song most of us grew up with was JOY: Jesus first, yourself last and others in between, right? Wrong, i forgot the Bible also said love your neighbours AS you love yourself, not more than. If i had committed that verse to memory, i could have save myself some tears.

All my ex boyfriends always had the same parting words, "Naked soul,you were a big influence in my life, you changed my outlook and made me a better person"..... and now i think, why did they leave then? My answer, its cuz my job with them was done. I focused so much on making them happy, on being perfect, on giving them all they wanted, that they got so bored. Thank God i have that figured out now

My used to be friends and even the ones i still talk to now know me as the Yes girl. No matter how inconvenient it will be for me, i would still do it. My mum actually told me i was too nice. I have my moments of saying No, but then i feel so bad, i give in.
A friend wanted a favour and told me that she's sure i wont object cuz i always say yes. I guess its time to start saying NO without feeling guilty. How do i do that?

I have reached my maximum point for giving. I need to have some receiving.


Thanks to Phoenix for calling me this week to check up on me. I cant begin to describe how touching that call was.